Well, Week 13 is here, and things are still truckin’ along! Over the weekend, I went to see Ali Wong in DC (if you haven’t seen her Netflix comedy special, Baby Cobra, stop what you’re doing and go watch it NOW — it’s beyond hilarious), and it was, of course, amazing.
And, given the amount of her set that talked about her baby daughter and the perils of breastfeeding (“I don’t do it because ‘breast is best,’ I do it because breast is FREE!”), it was particularly appropriate for an audience of, well, me. Speaking of which, let’s jump into the latest and greatest with Baby Foxlet:
Foxlet’s Size: Foxlet is currently the size of a lemon!
Weight Gained: Nothing new here. I go up and down a pound or two depending on how much I’m able to eat on any given day, but am still down about 12 pounds from pre-pregnancy.
Symptoms: I don’t know why I was expecting my nausea to magically disappear once I hit week 12, since my first trimester doesn’t even technically end until I’m halfway through this week (all my pregnancy apps seem to disagree slightly on when the 2nd trimester officially takes over, so I’m gonna go with the 1/3 of 40 weeks rule).
Every time I think I can predict how I’m going to feel (or try to chance it by forgoing my nausea meds), it gets even worse. Two days ago was my low point, when (TMI warning) I threw up three times during the day, including once where I ate a banana and immediately — I mean immediately — threw it back up, and once in the bathroom at Chipotle. Womp womp.
Emotions: More of the same as well. Commercials are especially loaded content for me these days — have you seen the one for Pampers where they show the mom give birth and talk about wrapping your baby in love from the moment he’s born?? I’m getting choked up just thinking about it right now… ::sniff:
Also making me cry? Pretty much every single thing my nieces do. Yesterday, this popped up on my Timehop and I just about lost it:
WHEN DID SHE GET SO BIG??? ::SOB::
Cravings: I think I might finally (finally!) be starting to experience cravings! Most of the time I still struggle just to figure out what I can fathom eating, but for the past couple of nights I’ve experienced serious hunger pangs late at night that MUST BE SATISFIED. Three nights ago this meant needing to get out of bed at 2 AM and bake up a box of Red Lobster Cheddar Bay Biscuits (thank goodness they sell the mix now!), and then proceeding to eat 4 of them in a row.
Aversions: I literally threw up trying to clean a bowl that had some of Sean’s leftover marinara dipping sauce in it, so, I’m gonna go ahead and say that tomato sauce and all tomato-sauce-laden dishes are still on my oh-no-no list. So, pizza, pasta, meatball subs, etc. And I still don’t really like eating meat at all. Aside from that, it’s just still hard for me to figure out what I want to eat at any given time, even when I know I’m hungry or that I should be eating something.
Sleep: Sleep isn’t too bad when I take a Unisom (although it makes it pretty hard for me to get up in the morning), and is pretty fitful when I forgo the sleep aid. So, it’s not great but I’m constantly reminded how lucky I am to work from home during this time. I think I’d be even more miserable if I was tethered to an early morning waking schedule and didn’t have the flexibility to shift my work schedule by a couple hours when the need (or nausea) strikes.
Wearing: Leggings are pretty much my one-and-only right now for comfort’s sake (having anything constrictive across my stomach seems to increase my nausea so, no bueno), but all my clothes are still fitting so, aside from trying on my new maternity clothes for novelty, nothing too severe has changed there.
Missing… eating normally (still). You’d think it’d be something you’d get used to after so many weeks but…
Looking Forward to… So, I got a fetal doppler a couple weeks ago (not the best judgment call I’ve made, as it made me extremely anxious at first when I was unsurprisingly unable to find the heartbeat), and have been able to reliably find Foxlet’s heartbeat since 11 weeks, 5 days. I try not to be obsessive about it, but it does bring me a lot of joy to hear that little horse-gallop coming from inside me every now and again.
Week 12 is here, hallelujah! This means I’m almost out of my first trimester (I guess that technically happens at the end of this week?) and hopefully *fingers crossed* am on my way out of these first trimester symptoms as well. I was 12 weeks on the dot yesterday, but I wanted to wait to post until after my doctor’s appointment, cause I got a new framer to show you, hehe.
That’s a real human baby in there!
Foxlet’s Size: Foxlet is currently the size of a plum, apricot, or my personal fave, a french macaron!
Weight Gained: Still down about the same amount from the beginning of my pregnancy (~13-14 pounds), so no weight gained, although I can definitely tell the shape of my body is starting to change. So no new weight seems to have packed on (yet…), but things appear to be redistributing, lol.
Symptoms: Every time I think I’m on the up and up nausea-wise, it tends to rear its ugly head. Things are still the worst in the evenings, starting around 5 PM and lasting until I go to sleep. But the daytime tends to be all right most of the time, so I’m taking what I can get!
My current most-hated symptom is actually not the nausea, but the terrible terrible terrible breaking out that is happening to my skin! I know this is like sooooooo #whitegirlprobs, but I’ve always had really clear skin, even in high school, so dealing with acne now is actually starting to affect my self-esteem. Let’s just say that glowing, I am not. Le sigh.
Emotions: Errrrm, yeah. I had a dream the other night that Sean and I got a new puppy, and then when I woke up and it wasn’t true I started bawling in bed. Also am crying every time I find Foxlet’s heartbeat on the fetal doppler at home (point of fact: I do not recommend getting a fetal doppler because I couldn’t actually find the heartbeat until 3 days ago and it was causing a lot of “Is my baby dead?!?” anxiety). Also cried at the OB’s office yesterday. Also started bawling when I started thinking about the possibility of Harry dying before Foxlet is born. Also may be getting choked up right now just typing that sentence.
Cravings: Still no specific cravings, as finding food that seems palatable is still my main mission every day. In general, I seem to prefer sweet foods to savories, and can always eat fruit, so I look forward to my future hyperactive sugar-baby.
Aversions: Some of my aversions seem to be subsiding, so that’s really good! I’ve been able to start eating french fries again (huzzah!!) although am still super turned off by the thought of pizza and most meat.
Sleep: Been battling insomnia for the past week, so I have to take a sleep aid at night (Unisom – safe for pregnancy) to help me fall asleep. Once I’m out, though, I’m pretty good at staying asleep and am still getting enough hours in at night that I’ve been able to avoid napping (for now!).
Wearing: The maternity clothes that I ordered arrived this week, so I’ve tried it all on and I kiiiind of love them. My bump is still not so much a bump as my normal bowl full of jelly + some super fun bloating, but as I mentioned above, I can tell that my shape is changing and that means that even without having gained weight, my pants are already much tighter than they used to be. Enter:
The new hotness.
I got like 3 different types of maternity shorts (over-belly, under-belly, side panel) because I’ll be my most pregnant at the hottest time of the year in Northern VA (not great panning on my part) but seeing as how it’ll be 70 degrees today, I might bust these puppies out a little bit early, gahahaha. I’m sure you’ll be seeing the rest of my maternity wardrobe very soon.
Purchases: Aside from some new clothes for me, I haven’t bought anything else new for baby yet.
Missing… nausea-free evenings.
Looking Forward to… Well, as of this time yesterday I would’ve said I was looking forward to finding out the sex of the baby. Which, obviously, I still am (VERY MUCH SO), but I thought that at my appointment yesterday I was getting a blood test that would A) screen for genetic stuff, but also B) able to tell me the sex of the baby (so early!). Weeeeell, turns out that is a different kind of test than the one I actually got, and the kind I want likely wouldn’t be covered by insurance because I’m not having a high-risk pregnancy. (Which, I get is a good thing, I know.) And without insurance would cost like $2,000. Lol.
Anyway, I’m just bummed because I thought I was going to get to find out early, and now I won’t get to know until the 20 week anatomy scan like everyone else. I know, I know, woe is me. I know this all probably sounds super dumb, but I can’t help it: I wanna knooooow! So now I’m considering going to one of those elective ultrasound places where you pay like $70 and they can tell you as early as 14 weeks (although I’d probably wait til at least 16 weeks to increase accuracy.) Does that seem stupid to pay extra money just so I can find out the sex a few weeks earlier? I mean, if we have the technology…
Okay, enough whining about that. It should go without saying that obviously my biggest hope is just for a healthy, happy baby, and so far, the docs say that everything looks exactly as it should, and Foxlet is perfectly on track for 12 weeks — yay!
Welcome, welcome to your first weekly Baby Foxlet update! Read on for a rundown of how things are going now that I’m officially in Week 11!
Foxlet’s Size: According to various apps, Foxlet is the size of a lime or a profiterole!
Weight Gained: Still down about 14 pounds from the start of my pregnancy thanks to all the nausea and vomiting (to which I actually woke up this morning… a grrrrrreat start to the day!)
Symptoms: More of the same, I’m afraid. Nausea, occasional vomiting, bloating, exhaustion, and insomnia seems to be joining the fray as of last night (which I think is probably why this morning started off over the porcelain throne, lol.) The good news (!) is that the stretches in the morning when I’m not feeling nauseous seem to be getting longer — yesterday I didn’t start feeling truly heinous until about 5 PM. Progress!
Emotions: All my emotions seem to be just a little more heightened than usual… which probably means that in comparison to a “normal” person, I’m a crazy hormonal wreck, lol. But I’ve only cried like 4 times so far this week (once was in Costco, twice was in response to commercials).
Cravings: None. All food is disgusting. Blegh.
Aversions: See above. But I’m especially turned off by pizza, chicken, steak, mashed potatoes (cryyyyyy), tomato sauce, and chewy bacon (but am digging super crispy bacon, so at least that’s something.)
Sleep: I’ve been sleeping a crazy amount (last night excepted.) I’ve been averaging around 9-10 hours a night, which is great and probably the only reason that I haven’t had to take naps every afternoon. It’s also nice because when I’m asleep, I’m not nauseous!
Wearing: My normal clothes still, although my sister gave me a waistband extender for my jeans that I had to bust out last week due to all this bloating. It’s also a good thing I own literally 16 pairs of yoga leggings because they’re pretty much what I live in. I did just order a few maternity items as well
Purchases: I did a little bit of crazy-lady purchasing right at the beginning when I found out I was pregnant, but haven’t picked anything up in a while.
Missing… actually enjoying eating. Sigh.
Looking Forward to… hopefully feeling some of these symptoms subside in the next week or so (fingers crossed!), and also for my 12 week appointment a week from today!
As I elaborated on last time, this pregnancy has come with a whole bunch of symptoms that I honestly wasn’t super prepared for. Among them have included total and complete exhaustion, as well as the lovely effects of hormones on my skin. I’ve been breaking out a lot more, and with being so tired, definitely haven’t had the energy to do full makeup on the daily (or, er, ah, ever.)
So I’ve made a bit of a change to my everyday (or rather, for the days I actually leave the house) makeup look, and finally got around to filming it! Feel free to check it out if you like!
And if you don’t like, I’ll be back tomorrow with my 11 week update, so stay tuned! And if you don’t like that either, well, you’ve got fingers, feel free to click away to a different website! 😉
So it’s official: we’ve spilled the beans, and Sean and I couldn’t be more excited that our little Foxlet is on his or her way!
Now, I know that even these days, 10 weeks is still considered kind of “early” to announce your pregnancy, but honestly, it’s taken a LOT of willpower to even wait this long! Being patient has never really been my strong suit (Sean says that if it’s a girl, we’re going to name her Patience so that I’ll finally have some, har har), and with such a huge development (and one that’s affected me so severely — more on that later), it’s been really hard to bite my tongue.
But now that the word is out, I can’t wait to answer all the questions that you were never planning on asking me about my pregnancy! This kind of stuff is probably super boring to many of you, so feel free to click away if you’re not interested in hearing about the nitty gritty deets, haha.
But that said, without further adieu…
September 20, 2017
Foxlet is currently the size of a kumquat, petit four, or a golden snitch!
How did you find out?
The old-fashioned pee-on-a-stick way. I actually found out suuuuuper early — an entire week before I was even supposed to miss my period! I was just 3 weeks, 4 days pregnant (which really means I’d only actually been pregnant for about 11 days, as doctors calculate your pregnancy from the first day of your last period), but I just had a feeling something was up. So I took a test… and then had to do a double-take when that (then very faint) line appeared! I took like 12 more tests over the next week just to be sure, lol, but there was no mistaking it from the beginning. I was knocked up!
How did you tell Sean?
I wrapped up a daddy parenting book and presented it to him, then showed him the positive tests after he unwrapped the present! He was surprised, but very happy. He may or may not have gotten a little misty… but he’ll never admit it. 🙂
How did you tell your family?
I was able to wait all of 20 minutes before FaceTiming my sister to tell her the big news, haha. I wish I had done something “better,” but I just felt like I had to tell her as soon as possible! I didn’t do anything special when I told my brother and sister-in-law either — just went over there and had a big emotional reveal, lol.
For my parents though, I ordered mugs off of Etsy that said “Popo… Again!” (the Chinese term for grandmother) and “Grampy… Again!” and had them open them at the same time. (We got “Grandma” and “Grampa” mugs for Sean’s parents, too.) I was able to capture my parents’ reaction on video:
How long were you trying?
We actually weren’t technically trying, although I went off my birth control in October, and had started tracking my periods (which were kind of all over the place!) in the Ovia fertility app. So I got pregnant the second month after I stopped my birth control. I’m very aware that this is not the case for a lot of people, and am, of course, incredibly thankful that it was able to happen this way for us. Our original plan was to officially start “trying” after our 1 year wedding anniversary in January, but it just ended up being a happy sort-of-surprise that our plans got moved up a bit!
What was your first symptom?
I started getting many of your typical first trimester symptoms pretty early — by week 5, I was already exhausted, nauseous, etc. But my very earliest symptom was definitely the INSANELY vivid dreams I started having right away! I’ve been keeping a dream journal in my pregnancy app (Ovia Pregnancy), and here’s a mere sampling of some of the entries from the first weeks of my pregnancy:
How have you been feeling?
TERRIBLE. Name a typical pregnancy symptom, and I’ve probably experienced it thus far. Exhaustion, nausea, insomnia, being super emotional, sore breasts, tender nerps, bloating, constipation, heightened sense of smell… sorry to be so vivid, but being knocked up ain’t a bed of roses, I tell you what. The nausea has been the worst part of it for me, because for so long it was completely constant, with no breaks and offering no relief at all. I feel a little guilty complaining when I know there are many women who would love to feel pregnancy symptoms at all — even the terrible ones — but it really has been a tough run these past six weeks.
I try to remind myself that if I didn’t have any bad symptoms at all, my anxiety would probably flare up like crazy and I’d think something was wrong with me or the baby. So maybe it’s been a blessing in disguise? (A very good, extremely convincing disguise.) My OB did prescribe me some medication which seems to have been helping a bit over the past week, and I’m hopeful that things will get better once I get into my second trimester… cross your fingers for me!
What about morning sickness?
Ugh, what a misnomer. I get why there are so many jokes about how it should be called “all day sickness,” because it’s actually no joke! I haven’t been vomiting that much (it only seems to happen when my stomach is totally empty), but I have had constant, unending nausea since before my 5th week. Until about week 9, it would start about 5 minutes after waking and last until I went to bed at night, and I won’t lie, it’s been really miserable.
This past week, however, the mornings have actually been pretty okay, and the nausea hasn’t been settling in until around 2 or 3 PM (then lasting through the rest of the afternoon and evening.) The extra hours of relief in the morning have really made a big difference!
Not really. I have a really weird relationship with food right now because I’ve been so nauseous that the idea of eating is repulsive in and of itself. But I’ve learned that I have to put something in my stomach every couple of hours, or I’ll throw up. So really the closest thing I’ve had to cravings so far is just identifying foods that I can fathom eating at all, let alone enjoy.
Some of the things that I seem to okay with eating pretty regularly include apples, applesauce, peanut butter pretzels, canned peaches, cereal, cheese, yogurt and ice cream. And generally, most desserts seem to sit all right with me… even if I wasn’t able to eat more than a couple bites of my dinner, lol. Foxlet likes sugar, I guess.
Any food aversions?
Yes! Um, basically all food is now gross to me so, um, everything? As I mentioned above, the concept of eating anything at all is quite difficult for me these days, but there are specific things that I am really turned off by, and the saddest part is that the list includes many of my former favorite foods! French fries, mashed potatoes, Chinese food, steak, burgers, chicken, hot dogs, tomato sauce (weirdly, raw tomatoes are on my A-OK list, but things like pasta with red sauce and pizza are blech), and salads (except for caesar salad) are all currently on my no-fly list.
I’ve actually lost around 15 pounds since finding out I’m pregnant! (Although between the bloating and my inability to suck in my stomach without feeling like I’m gonna hurl, I definitely don’t look it.) My nausea and food aversions have been so intense that I’m eating way less than I imagine I normally do. I actually hear this is quite common (especially for plus-sized moms-to-be), so it’s not really a cause for concern. I’m sure I’ll gain it all back (and then some) as soon as I can eat like a normal human again.
How has work been going?
I thank God every day that I work from home and have such a flexible job, because given how tough the past 6 weeks have been, I can only imagine how much harder it would be if I had to go into an office every day! But work is good, aside from shifting around my typical work schedule around a bit to account for some extra sleeping or time spent being pathetic on the couch.
I spent this past week at a work conference in the city, and was a little worried about how well I’d do having to actually sit up and pay attention instead of wallow in self-pity, but it all turned out all right. I did spill the beans to my coworkers at the beginning of the week though, so they’d understand if I was a little less peppy than usual (or if I had to suddenly bolt out of the room — thankfully, that didn’t happen!)
What about working out?
Lol, well, those of you who know me know that even when I wasn’t pregnant, I hated working out. And with the much-mentioned nausea and general feeling-terrible-ness of this pregnancy, it’s been extra hard to motivate myself. But I know that movement is important when it comes to both my and Foxlet’s health, so I’ve been trying to get in at least one 20-30 minute walk every day. It’s not much, but I do think it helps (and it’s not too hard to convince myself to do it when the weather is as insanely nice as it’s been this week!)
How are Harry & Daxter doing?
Harry never seems to be bothered by anything, but I think Daxter definitely can tell something’s up. He’s been sooooo cute and cuddly with me since I got pregnant! I’m not 100% sure how he’ll react to having a baby in the house — he’s had plenty of experience around my nieces Mia and Kira, but has also exhibited a bit of jealous behavior in the past. I’m planning on doing several things to make sure both dogs are acclimated appropriately as things progress.
I’ve got a running list going, but finding names that both Sean and I agree on are few and far between. I’m sure that once we find out the sex of the baby, the name conversation will start taking place more often, but right now it’s not really top of mind.
What do you think the baby will look like?
Speculating on this has been one of the most fun parts of my pregnancy so far! Sean and I are both half-Asian and half-Caucasian — he is half-Korean, half-Irish, and I’m half-Chinese, half-generic white bread (I think my dad’s side of the family originates from Wales… like 14 generations ago.) Knowing how kooky genetics can get when it comes to mixed-race kids (just look at how different my siblings and I look!), it’s fun to think about how this kiddo could come out looking super Asian, or could come out with green eyes and dirty blonde hair.
Whew! I think that probably covers it for now. I gotta say, it feels so good to be able to talk (write!) about all of this! I’m sure that future updates will be much shorter and sweeter, and apologies for the wordiness of this post… but I’ve been keeping a lot bottled up over the past few weeks! If you’ve got any questions for me that I didn’t touch on today though, lay ’em on me!