Foxlet: Week 16

Aloha, week 16!

I’ve got the usual updates down below, but first off, I’m super excited to tell you guys that my sister, Jen, is also pregnant right now with #3! I’ve been trying really hard to bite my tongue about the news until she had officially announced (she was waiting until she found out the sex — Mia and Kira are getting a baby brother!!), but now the word is out!

She’s 5 weeks ahead of me, and it’s been really fun and definitely very special to go through my own pregnancy along with her. Since this is her third, she’s a pro now! And getting to glean bits of wisdom from her, as well as having someone who never seems to get tired of me complaining to her about the ugly side of pregnancy, has been really nice. Although, admittedly, late Summer/early Fall of this year is gonna be kiiiiiiind of a crazy time for my parents, heh.

I had my 16 week OB checkup yesterday, and got great news about the First Trimester Screen I completed last month. Foxlet has a 1/10,000 chance of having Trisomes 13, 18, or 21 (Down Syndrome), and according to my doctor, that’s the best possible result I could’ve received! So hooray!

Foxlet’s Size: Foxlet is the size of an avocado, a dill pickle, or a can of soda.

Weight Gained: I’m back up a pound or so this week, still sitting about 13 pounds down from my pre-pregnancy weight… not that you’d know it given how gigantic my stomach already is. Like I discussed last week, apparently even a teeny little avocado of a baby can give you a giant ultrabelly if you’ve already got a nice squishy stomach to start with. Oy. 

Symptoms: Nausea’s still hanging around, lucky girl that I am, although I’ve had 1 or 2 miraculous non-nauseous days (or at least, completely nausea-free until nighttime) which have been amaaaaaaazing. Still holding out hope that I’m juuuuuust about to turn that corner and finally start to feel that pregnancy glow, lol.

This week I’ve also been experiencing a little bit of heartburn, I’ve still got that lovely boob tenderness, and I’ve been noticing I get cold much more easily/frequently than usual (which is sure strange for me, because I’m normally always hot!) On the positive symptoms side of things, my nails are super strong and thick right now!

Emotions: Oh boy. They are definitely in hyperdrive right now. If I thought I’ve been extra emotional these past few weeks, I really didn’t know what I was talking about.  It is pretty extreme right now. I spent the majority of yesterday in tears for one reason or another — Sean had to work late, Daxter was being cute, someone made me feel fat, Piper and Leo just can’t be happy on Charmed, I wanted ice cream and then I didn’t… you get the picture. 

And it probably isn’t helping that I’ve been listening to the Moana soundtrack nonstop every time I’m in the car. I have yet make it through without bursting into tears during “How Far I’ll Go.” And that goes double for the reprise. 

Cravings: Fresh fruit, especially watermelon and apples, raw veggies, and Thai food, particularly noodle dishes like drunken noodles and pad see ew. Although, with my nausea still coming and going, unless I act on a craving immediately, by the time I get my hands on whatever food I said I was craving, I don’t want it anymore. And I have the untouched containers of pad thai in my fridge to prove it. Sigh. 

Still, I’m taking pleasure in every moment that I actually desire food at all, since that hasn’t really been the case for the past 3 months!
Aversions: Red sauce, bananas, and, unfortunately, fish are currently on my oh-no-no list. I’m starting to become less averse to meat, which is good, but still am not feeling much of a desire to eat it.

Sleep: Still sleeping hard and long. Crying all the time is really exhausting, okay?!

Purchases: I actually made my first relatively big baby-related purchase this past week! It wasn’t big monetarily, because I paid just $35 for it, lol, but it’s a big deal because it’s our first real piece of baby furniture: a bassinet!

I’ve pretty much decided that I’ll want to keep the baby in a bassinet/pack-n-play/mini-crib/something on my side of the bed at first, and I’ve been looking into bassinets in particular since our bedroom isn’t all that big. I’d already seen the Babyletto Bowery bassinet online during some cursory searches, and liked the look of it immediately. But with a retail price of $120 – $150, and some mixed reviews about its size and unwieldiness (it’s actually surprisingly big!), I wasn’t ready to purchase it outright (or even add it to my registry just yet.)

That said, when I saw it pop up on Facebook Marketplace for such a low price, I couldn’t pass up the opportunity and decided to give it a chance! I figure that if Foxlet doesn’t end up liking it, or if we decide to go in another direction, I can always resell it (or, worst case scenario, we’re only $35 out anyway.) It’s got a few cosmetic scratches, but is in good condition, and even came with an upgraded cradle mattress (the one that it normally comes with is apparently really crappy). I’ve cleaned and disinfected it, as well as filled in some of the scratches using the walnut hack. I’m pretty happy with the result!

I know I’ve still got a loooong way to go with this pregnancy, but I won’t lie, picking up our first piece of furniture has me pretty excited! I think it’s just like, every new part of preparing for the baby just makes it all the more real, y’know?

Wearing: With the warm weather we’ve been having this week, I’m all about the maternity shorts I picked up from Old Navy and Target! As you can see from my bump photos above, I think I’ll be getting my money’s worth with these.

Missing… being on my normal emotional spectrum (which was, let’s be honest, already pretty wide-ranging, lol.)

Looking Forward to… continuing to get more mommy practice in while my nieces are currently visiting. I’ve been able to hang out with my friend Lara and her beautiful new baby girl as well, which has been a great lesson in just how tiny babies are when they start out (given Mia’s and Kira’s current size, this is a surprisingly easy thing to forget.)

 
Ooh, and I’m definitely looking forward to my birthday dinner this weekend, too! My birthday isn’t until Tuesday, but my family is celebrating early while Jenny and the girls are in town. Huzzah!

Foxlet: Week 15

Oh man, week 15 is here and the belly has started to become a force all its own these days! During the day, it’s still pretty tame, but by day’s end, it is poppin’ somethin’ fierce! Guess that’s what happens when you already have a nice squishy belly on top of baby to begin with, eh? Plus, by the end of the day, my stomach muscles are just like, “Boy, bye!” which makes it pop out all the more. Super crazy.

Being slightly more zaftig than some, I was unsure about how my pregnancy would “show” (or whether it would at all!) One of my biggest fears has been that since I already had quite a bit of belly to start with, nobody would be able to tell that I’m pregnant until I’m just about ready to give birth. But, much like my friend Cassie described when she went through this same thing, it seems like I’ll be having the opposite problem. Evidently my normal-stomach is just compounding with my pregnancy-belly and creating some kind of crazy ultra-bump, and so I actually feel like I’m showing much earlier than I anticipated!

I still think I’m straddling the line between “pregnant or fat?” most days, but I mean, I’m only 15 weeks and, depending on what I’m wearing and how late in the day it is (see photos below), I personally think I look preeeeetty knocked up. Give it a couple more weeks, and I’m sure it’ll grow quickly outta control, lol.

What I’m wearing is a pretty big factor, I think. All my high-waisted leggings tend to keep my bump sucked in/smoothed down a bit more (see below), while dresses and under-the-bump shorts seem to emphasize it (see above.) Anyway, on with the update!

 

Foxlet’s Size: Foxlet is the size of an apple, éclair, or a naval orange!

Weight Gained: Nothing new here. Still negative fifteen-ish pounds. I still can’t get over how much my body shape has already changed, and how much extra girth has gone to my stomach (and boobs, lol) given that not only have I not gained any new weight, but have actually lost weight since getting knocked up! I don’t really feel like the rest of me looks much different, but my mom told me the other day that my face seemed slimmer so maybe it is being pulled from other places? Whatever, I’ll continue to take what I can get before major pregnancy weight gain sets in (as I am sure it will before long.)

Symptoms: Ughhhh, my booooooobs. They are large, super tender, and are very in charge. I feel like they weigh a bazillion pounds! I also am feeling the effects of pregnancy brain in full-force. I lose my train of thought super easily, and am definitely more forgetful than usual. I’ve also been experiencing some pelvic-area pain — sometimes sharp, sometimes more like a kind of stretching feeling It mainly happens if I move too quickly when going from laying/sitting to standing, or twist my torso.

Toss in renewed full-body exhaustion, and the unfortunate return of some skin issues (though fortunately not as bad as before!), and I’d say I’m still not feeling that #pregnancyglow people keep telling me about, hahaha.

Nausea-wise, I’m continuing to feel like I’m on the up and up, so that’s some good news! Although, that being said, I also feel like every time I say I’m coming out of this phase, I jinx it and that very evening I end up throwing up again. Sooooo, I’ll just cautiously say that I have been feeling a smidge better, and am hopeful that this trend continues.

Emotions: I’ve been re-watching Charmed on Netflix and burst into tears basically every other episode, so make of that what you will. I also came home from dinner with my family last night and inexplicably burst into tears as soon as I saw Sean.

Cravings: Cravings are actually starting to become a reality! HUZZAH!! This week I had one very intense craving for watermelon, and am happy to say that my aversion to potatoes is officially over. And thank goodness, too, because I don’t know how I would have survived this pregnancy without french fries. I’ve also had a specific thirst for both almond milk and orange juice for the past few weeks. Maybe I’m calcium and Vitamin C deficient? I’m just happy that certain foods are starting to actively sound good again!

As for what I’m eating otherwise, I continue being able to enjoy eating bagels + cream cheese, grapes and cheese, apples and peanut butter, beans and rice, etc. It’s not the most exciting diet, but my limited library of edible foods means that I’ve actually been eating relatively healthfully, so that’s good. And eating mainly snack-type foods means I’m generally eating smaller meals more frequently, which I think is also helping keep the nausea at bay.

Aversions: The usual: marinara sauce, meat, and as a new joyful surprise, while I don’t feel like I have a mental aversion, apparently I’m having a very strong physical aversion to bananas. I don’t mind the idea of eating them, but every banana I’ve tried to eat recently has been immediately regurgitated soooo, I think I’m done with that.

Sleep: Aw man, I’m so tired all the time right now! I’ve been sleeping laaaate and still feeling suuuuuper exhausted when I wake. I remain eternally grateful that I have a flexible, work-from-home job and are not slave to an office schedule right now, because I think I’d be rocking some serious keyboard-face if I had to go into an office these days.

Wearing: I’ve officially broken into my maternity clothes as of this week. I’m actually super glad that I picked up some items from Old Navy and Target a couple weeks ago, because it means that I already had some things to wear as soon as I started feeling like the belly was taking charge. I’ve also gotten down to just one wearable pre-pregnancy bra, so I bit the bullet and bought a new bra, two cup sizes bigger. I kept it to just one though, since I have no way of knowing how much more these puppies are gonna expand, but I’m guessing it’s gonna be more.

Missing… not running out of breath so easily! I swear, whether it’s because of my increased blood volume, pressure on my pelvis, or whatever the cause, just walking around H&M at the mall leaves me short of breath these days. It’s kind of embarrassing, to be honest. Shopping really is my cardio right now, I guess.

Looking Forward to… FINDING OUT IF I’M HAVING A GIRL OR A BOY. Ugh, I’m DYINGGGGG to know! I was doing okay last week but these past few days have been rooooough. Pretty sure I’m gonna cave by Week 16 and have to find out early, lol. I swear, I’m trying to be patient but, I mean, I was already one of the least-patient people I knew before getting pregnant sooooooooo…

Foxlet: Week 14

Ahhhh, week 14! This update is coming at you a bit belatedly due to all the extra vomiting and terribleness that has plagued me for the past few days. Luckily (*knocks on wood*), yesterday seemed to be a turning point where I was able to go the entire day without feeling super nauseous AND was even able to eat an entire Egg McMuffin meal to boot. I can’t even remember the last time I ate anything that you could call an actual “meal” so this is a real boon!

I had an Elite Event last night, too, so it finally gave me an excuse to get out of the house, wear makeup, and not look like a total sorry-for-myself butt. Huzzah!

Foxlet’s Size: Foxlet is currently the size of a nectarine, or a donut!

Weight Gained: Feeling like a broken record, but nothing has changed here. In fact, the few pounds it looked like I had re-gained last week have disappeared again, so I’m back to about 15 pounds down from my pre-pregnancy weight. Who knew that this was the weight-loss solution I’ve been searching for my whole life!

Symptoms: Cross your fingers for me that I really am in the homestretch of my “morning” sickness and nausea! It’s hard to predict, because one day I’ll think that I’m turning a corner, and then the next day I’ll be crouched over my porcelain throne for 25% of the day, but yesterday was my first legitimately good day since, um, week 4. Please, pleeeeeeease let this awful stage of baking this little cinnamon bun be over!

Aside from that, I’ve mainly been experiencing exhaustion, some round ligament pain as my uterus is growing and stretching, and of course…

Emotions: Unsurprisingly, I’m a huge, ridiculous mess when it comes to watching movies these days. I went to see Beauty & the Beast with Ben & Tay and cried sooooo much (also, I loved it!). I mean, like, literally as soon as it transitioned from the Disney intro with the castle into the classic opening theme, I was already a wreck (it was such a seamless transition!).

I also re-watched Moana for the first time since seeing it in the theatres and was destroyed multiple times. God, it’s so good. Like, I’m legitimately getting teary just thinking about it again now.

Cravings: No super strong cravings yet, although last night when I ate my post-event Egg McMuffin, I wanted another one, so I’m going to chalk that up as a kind of craving? Mainly I just want to celebrate that I ate a real thing! And still wanted more! What a novel feeling after the past couple months!

Aversions: Red sauce is still the bane of my existence, and I still have that know-I-should-eat-something-but-just-can’t-fathom-putting-anything-in-my-mouth feeling more often than not. I just stare into my open refrigerator, breathing through my mouth because the smells emanating from the fridge are a little bit much, wracked with indecision.

Sleep: Still vacillating between being a sleep monster and an insomniac. The night before last I went to bed at 9:30 and didn’t get out of bed until… 9:30. And then also took a nap from 2 to 4. The night before that, I could hardly sleep at all.

Wearing: I tried to wear jeans to my Elite Event last night and had to bust out the wide waistband extender, so I think my decision to primarily wear leggings and dresses is still a good one.

Missing… being carnivorous. I guess it’s not really a bad thing, but my meat consumption is way, way down and I do miss the idea of a delicious steak (even if I’m not missing steak itself.)

Looking Forward to… God-willing, being over this nauseous, sad-sack side of pregnancy and hopefully on my way to the whole joyous, glowing, wonderful second-trimester stuff I keep hearing about!

Foxlet: Week 13

Well, Week 13 is here, and things are still truckin’ along! Over the weekend, I went to see Ali Wong in DC (if you haven’t seen her Netflix comedy special, Baby Cobra, stop what you’re doing and go watch it NOW — it’s beyond hilarious), and it was, of course, amazing.

And, given the amount of her set that talked about her baby daughter and the perils of breastfeeding (“I don’t do it because ‘breast is best,’ I do it because breast is FREE!”), it was particularly appropriate for an audience of, well, me. Speaking of which, let’s jump into the latest and greatest with Baby Foxlet:

Foxlet’s Size: Foxlet is currently the size of a lemon!

Weight Gained: Nothing new here. I go up and down a pound or two depending on how much I’m able to eat on any given day, but am still down about 12 pounds from pre-pregnancy.

Symptoms: I don’t know why I was expecting my nausea to magically disappear once I hit week 12, since my first trimester doesn’t even technically end until I’m halfway through this week (all my pregnancy apps seem to disagree slightly on when the 2nd trimester officially takes over, so I’m gonna go with the 1/3 of 40 weeks rule).

Every time I think I can predict how I’m going to feel (or try to chance it by forgoing my nausea meds), it gets even worse. Two days ago was my low point, when (TMI warning) I threw up three times during the day, including once where I ate a banana and immediately — I mean immediately — threw it back up, and once in the bathroom at Chipotle. Womp womp.

Emotions: More of the same as well. Commercials are especially loaded content for me these days — have you seen the one for Pampers where they show the mom give birth and talk about wrapping your baby in love from the moment he’s born?? I’m getting choked up just thinking about it right now… ::sniff:

Also making me cry? Pretty much every single thing my nieces do. Yesterday, this popped up on my Timehop and I just about lost it:

WHEN DID SHE GET SO BIG??? ::SOB::

Cravings: I think I might finally (finally!) be starting to experience cravings! Most of the time I still struggle just to figure out what I can fathom eating, but for the past couple of nights I’ve experienced serious hunger pangs late at night that MUST BE SATISFIED. Three nights ago this meant needing to get out of bed at 2 AM and bake up a box of Red Lobster Cheddar Bay Biscuits (thank goodness they sell the mix now!), and then proceeding to eat 4 of them in a row.

Aversions: I literally threw up trying to clean a bowl that had some of Sean’s leftover marinara dipping sauce in it, so, I’m gonna go ahead and say that tomato sauce and all tomato-sauce-laden dishes are still on my oh-no-no list. So, pizza, pasta, meatball subs, etc. And I still don’t really like eating meat at all. Aside from that, it’s just still hard for me to figure out what I want to eat at any given time, even when I know I’m hungry or that I should be eating something. 

Sleep: Sleep isn’t too bad when I take a Unisom (although it makes it pretty hard for me to get up in the morning), and is pretty fitful when I forgo the sleep aid. So, it’s not great but I’m constantly reminded how lucky I am to work from home during this time. I think I’d be even more miserable if I was tethered to an early morning waking schedule and didn’t have the flexibility to shift my work schedule by a couple hours when the need (or nausea) strikes.

Wearing: Leggings are pretty much my one-and-only right now for comfort’s sake (having anything constrictive across my stomach seems to increase my nausea so, no bueno), but all my clothes are still fitting so, aside from trying on my new maternity clothes for novelty, nothing too severe has changed there.

Missing… eating normally (still). You’d think it’d be something you’d get used to after so many weeks but…

Looking Forward to… So, I got a fetal doppler a couple weeks ago (not the best judgment call I’ve made, as it made me extremely anxious at first when I was unsurprisingly unable to find the heartbeat), and have been able to reliably find Foxlet’s heartbeat since 11 weeks, 5 days. I try not to be obsessive about it, but it does bring me a lot of joy to hear that little horse-gallop coming from inside me every now and again.

Foxlet: Week 12

Week 12 is here, hallelujah! This means I’m almost out of my first trimester (I guess that technically happens at the end of this week?) and hopefully *fingers crossed* am on my way out of these first trimester symptoms as well. I was 12 weeks on the dot yesterday, but I wanted to wait to post until after my doctor’s appointment, cause I got a new framer to show you, hehe.

That’s a real human baby in there!

Foxlet’s Size: Foxlet is currently the size of a plum, apricot, or my personal fave, a french macaron!

Weight Gained: Still down about the same amount from the beginning of my pregnancy (~13-14 pounds), so no weight gained, although I can definitely tell the shape of my body is starting to change. So no new weight seems to have packed on (yet…), but things appear to be redistributing, lol.

Symptoms: Every time I think I’m on the up and up nausea-wise, it tends to rear its ugly head. Things are still the worst in the evenings, starting around 5 PM and lasting until I go to sleep. But the daytime tends to be all right most of the time, so I’m taking what I can get!

My current most-hated symptom is actually not the nausea, but the terrible terrible terrible breaking out that is happening to my skin! I know this is like sooooooo #whitegirlprobs, but I’ve always had really clear skin, even in high school, so dealing with acne now is actually starting to affect my self-esteem. Let’s just say that glowing, I am not. Le sigh.

Emotions: Errrrm, yeah. I had a dream the other night that Sean and I got a new puppy, and then when I woke up and it wasn’t true I started bawling in bed. Also am crying every time I find Foxlet’s heartbeat on the fetal doppler at home (point of fact: I do not recommend getting a fetal doppler because I couldn’t actually find the heartbeat until 3 days ago and it was causing a lot of “Is my baby dead?!?” anxiety). Also cried at the OB’s office yesterday. Also started bawling when I started thinking about the possibility of Harry dying before Foxlet is born. Also may be getting choked up right now just typing that sentence.

Cravings: Still no specific cravings, as finding food that seems palatable is still my main mission every day. In general, I seem to prefer sweet foods to savories, and can always eat fruit, so I look forward to my future hyperactive sugar-baby.

Aversions: Some of my aversions seem to be subsiding, so that’s really good! I’ve been able to start eating french fries again (huzzah!!) although am still super turned off by the thought of pizza and most meat.

Sleep: Been battling insomnia for the past week, so I have to take a sleep aid at night (Unisom – safe for pregnancy) to help me fall asleep. Once I’m out, though, I’m pretty good at staying asleep and am still getting enough hours in at night that I’ve been able to avoid napping (for now!).

Wearing: The maternity clothes that I ordered arrived this week, so I’ve tried it all on and I kiiiind of love them. My bump is still not so much a bump as my normal bowl full of jelly + some super fun bloating, but as I mentioned above, I can tell that my shape is changing and that means that even without having gained weight, my pants are already much tighter than they used to be. Enter:

The new hotness.

I got like 3 different types of maternity shorts (over-belly, under-belly, side panel) because I’ll be my most pregnant at the hottest time of the year in Northern VA (not great panning on my part) but seeing as how it’ll be 70 degrees today, I might bust these puppies out a little bit early, gahahaha. I’m sure you’ll be seeing the rest of my maternity wardrobe very soon.

Purchases: Aside from some new clothes for me, I haven’t bought anything else new for baby yet.

Missing… nausea-free evenings.

Looking Forward to… Well, as of this time yesterday I would’ve said I was looking forward to finding out the sex of the baby. Which, obviously, I still am (VERY MUCH SO), but I thought that at my appointment yesterday I was getting a blood test that would A) screen for genetic stuff, but also B) able to tell me the sex of the baby (so early!). Weeeeell, turns out that is a different kind of test than the one I actually got, and the kind I want likely wouldn’t be covered by insurance because I’m not having a high-risk pregnancy. (Which, I get is a good thing, I know.) And without insurance would cost like $2,000. Lol.

Anyway, I’m just bummed because I thought I was going to get to find out early, and now I won’t get to know until the 20 week anatomy scan like everyone else. I know, I know, woe is me. I know this all probably sounds super dumb, but I can’t help it: I wanna knooooow! So now I’m considering going to one of those elective ultrasound places where you pay like $70 and they can tell you as early as 14 weeks (although I’d probably wait til at least 16 weeks to increase accuracy.) Does that seem stupid to pay extra money just so I can find out the sex a few weeks earlier? I mean, if we have the technology…

Okay, enough whining about that. It should go without saying that obviously my biggest hope is just for a healthy, happy baby, and so far, the docs say that everything looks exactly as it should, and Foxlet is perfectly on track for 12 weeks — yay!