Bee My Valentine?

Happy Valentine’s Day!

 

I’ve always liked Valentine’s Day but can’t say I’ve really ever been THAT into it. I’m a pretty emotionally expressive person, so it’s not like I don’t show Sean how much I loooooooove him on a pretty regular basis, hahahahaha. But it’s always nice to have an extra excuse to put some extra love out into the world! And obviously, today is especially love-filled this year, since we have our little lovebug to celebrate with!

 

(Do you think I said the word “love” enough in that last paragraph? Lololololol.)

Aaaanyway, Penny’s going to be celebrating with her grandparents this evening, as they’ve graciously agreed to babysit again so Sean and I can go out to dinner and have a little V-Day time for just the two of us. Hope you have a lovely day!

Focusing on the Good

Whew, is it Friday already? It’s been a busy week!

My mom’s birthday was Tuesday, so the fam celebrated by having dinner out at True Food Kitchen in Mosaic. Since dinner wasn’t until 7:30, which is just about Penny’s bedtime, I thought that if we put Penny in her PJs that maybe she’d fall asleep in the car and sleep through dinner. Well, I was half-right — she fell right asleep in her carseat, but woke up as soon as we got inside the restaurant and was simply not interested in going back to sleep. Womp womp.

 
I think the days of us being able to dine out with her snoozing peacefully away are officially behind us. She just finds everything far too interesting now. Oh well, soon enough she’ll be able to sit in her own high chair and participate in meals with us when we dine out!

And speaking of dining… Penny’s been really enjoying eating oatmeal (we’re using the Happy Baby Organic Baby Oatmeal), so after four days of her demolishing each bowl of that, we’ve moved on to trying out sweet potatoes!

 
I boiled two sweet potatoes and processed them with about half a cup of the water they were cooked in, then divvied up the puree into 2 oz portions. (The containers are from Babymoov, if you’re curious.)

Penny loved it, of course! She took down a whole container with gusto — my good little eater! Of course, the fact that she loves solids so much isn’t something I could just celebrate outright. Nope, I just had to get anxiety about how this is going to affect us in terms of nursing and my milk supply. It probably doesn’t help that I’ve had a ton of work to get done this week, so I’ve spent less time in the house (sadly, even if someone else is taking care of her, I’m much more productive when I’m not around Penny ::sob::) which means, of course, I’ve spent less time breastfeeding.

Plus, during the times when I have been able to nurse her over the past few days, she’s been much, much fussier than normal. And pair that with the fact that yesterday I had a pumping session where I produced less than 1 oz of breastmilk total (I had typically been producing 2 – 4 oz per breast previously), and I found myself in a bit of a tailspin:

Am I not producing enough anymore? Is it not coming out fast enough? Have I not been pumping often enough? Is she still hungry? You hear about babies who lose interest in breastfeeding once they start solids — is that what’s happening? Does she prefer bottles to nursing now? Am I going to have to start power pumping? Exclusively pumping? Should we start supplementing with formula?

Aaaaand so on, and so forth. There’s just always something, y’know? No matter how smooth a breastfeeding journey you’ve had thus far, how easy a baby you’ve got, or how just, well, good becoming a mom has been (all of which I know I’m already insanely lucky to be able to say about myself), anxiety and fear always finds a way to creep in.

But I’m trying to take a step back and remind myself that one or two days does not a pattern make, and that she’s going through another developmental leap, and that since I haven’t had any issues up to this point, I shouldn’t jump to conclusions… but that doesn’t mean it’s not tough to keep things in perspective sometimes. I really am trying, though! Continuing to force myself to focus on gratitude and all the positive things I have going on in my life definitely helps when I start to spin out like this — because I really do have a lot of good going on!

 
And speaking of good things, I am excited to announce that our new part-time nanny started! She’s great, and we’re thrilled to have found someone that we feel comfortable taking care of our Lucky Penny. And Penny took to her right away, too, which really made everything even more reassuring.

Our nanny actually has an 11-month old daughter who she’ll be bringing with her to our house (so it’s kind of like a nannyshare, in a way), and I know it sounds so cheesy but I’m really excited for Penny to have a li’l baby friend to watch, emulate, and hopefully play with very soon.

Double the cuteness, double the fun!

I hope everyone has a relaxing and/or productive weekend, depending on what your goals are, hehe. Mine will be spent pumping (lol sigh), cleaning, snuggling with a certain baby, and helping out my bro on a music video shoot! And hopefully sleeping too…

We’ll see you on the flipside!

Starting Solids!

Happy Monday!

I hope everyone had a great weekend — mine fell 100% into the productive vs. relaxing weekend category, and I’m not mad about it. My lifted mood from last week is still going strong, and is helping me stay motivated in continuing to declutter our home, figure out my schedule, and generally just get my life in order! I feel like I accomplished a ton, from cleaning to childcare to cooking (I’m making a big concentrated effort to plan meals more and eat out less as part of both my weight-related and finance-related goals, lol), and I’m feeling pretty good going into this week.

I was able to check another area off of my KonMari to-do list: my office! As you know, I work from home, which up until this point has meant working from my coffee table because my desk had just become one giant catch-all for random crap. Thankfully, that’s no longer the case anymore, and I can look at my workspace as a place to actually get work done now. Huzzah! Penny is clearly very excited about it:

Okay, okay, maybe her excitement isn’t stemming so much from my recently decluttered office, but the fact that she started solids yesterday!! Upon her pediatrician’s recommendation, she had her very first taste of baby oatmeal yesterday. We followed instructions to mix 1 tbsp of oatmeal with 4 tbsp pumped breastmilk for a super runny consistency since it was her very first time.

And while she was a but confused upon first bite…

 
She ended up getting really into it! She took to the spoon very quickly, didn’t push it out or turn away, and certainly didn’t seem to have any trouble taking her food down.

 
She ate the whole bowl! She really is my child.

Lol, she just looks so satisfied with herself! I’m sensing we’ll also be seeing more baths in her future now that we’ve hit this particular milestone… and not gonna lie, I’m not looking forward to how this is going to change what comes out from the other end now, hahahaha.

But I AM excited to be able to get into making other foods for her now that this went so well! I’ve already got some sweet potatoes, so I think that’ll probably be her first “real” food, as we continue having fun with the baby oatmeal as well (and lowering the ratio of oatmeal:milk as she gets better with the texture.) And from there? Sky’s the limit! It’s a whole new world of flavor and texture out there for Penny now!

What was your baby’s (or your!) first food?

I think mine was bananas. My parents tell me that it was my first word, too! Baby Gretchen must’ve loved her some ‘naners.

 

Cleaning House (Literally & Figuratively)

Happy February. AHHH IT’S FEBRUARY. How is it February?! Okay, so, yeah, the fact that the first month of the year has absolutely FLOWN by is kind of throwing me for a loop. But! I’m actually feeling really good going into this new month — my spirits are high, I’m feeling optimistic, uplifted, and enthusiastic about tackling the next 28 (well, 27 now) days with purpose and passion.

Why am I in such high spirits, you ask? Well, a multitude of reasons, really! The obvious answer is that Penny is just such a joy right now! I mean, not that she isn’t always, duh, but just in particular right now. She’s so engaged and animated, she “talks” all the time, and is so responsive to your interactions with her… 5 months is just such a fun age!

 
We’ve also made some forward strides in our childcare search: we’ve actually found a daycare that I’m really excited about! I was previously leaning more towards a nanny/nannyshare, and I have met with a couple of people that I really liked, but ultimately we decided that enrolling Penny in daycare part-time is a better fit for my work needs, and for our budget.

 
A spot for Penny won’t be available until this summer (not that this was surprising to us — daycares in Northern VA are very competitive. I inquired into one that doesn’t have an opening until January 2019!), so we are still looking at bringing in a part-time nanny to help bridge the gap until then, particularly because my parents will be doing a ton of traveling this spring. I made sure to be upfront about these plans to our top two nanny candidates, and they both said they’d be willing to take the position on a temporary basis. So hopefully we’ll be moving forward with that soon too. Stay tuned!

 
Another big reason I’m feeling so upbeat is because I’ve been doing a lot of physical and mental decluttering lately. In a revelation that likely surprises no one, I own a lot of crap. I mean, you point me in the direction of basically anything with sequins, faux-fur, polka dots, Harry Potter, schnauzers, foxes, or unicorns, and I will want to purchase it. So, as you can imagine, our house was already on the cluttered side before Penny came into the picture… along with the myriad of baby-related paraphernalia that tends to come with procreating, lol. We just have so much stuff, you know?

Enter the KonMari Method. I plan on going into this in more detail later in a separate post (when I’m closer to being done, lol), but the essence of this project is very simple: your belongings and surroundings should spark joy in you. So I’m trying to get rid of all (or at least, most of) the unnecessary things we’ve (okay, okay, I’ve) accrued over the years, and breathe joy, calm, and purpose back into our home.

Hahaha, I feel so pretentious typing that last part of the previous sentence, but the thing is… it really is working! Things are very much still a work-in-progress (I swear, I’m being ruthless in getting rid of stuff, but we still have so much crap!), but I really do feel happy walking through our kitchen and actually seeing clear counterspace. And filling bag after bag with things to toss or items to donate/sell feels very cleansing. (I do wish I’d taken more “before” photos tho.)

 
And so along with the physical act of organizing our home and simplifying my life, I’m being proactive with regard to getting my mental and emotional clutter cleared out as well. I won’t lie to you guys, I hit a pretty rough spot emotionally a few weeks ago. I was feeling extremely overwhelmed about finding time for work, motherhood, my marriage, my pups, my family, my friends, my health, and myself. The lack of control I was feeling quickly had me spiraling out, making me feel like I was never going to be able to achieve the kind of balance I wanted in my life. It was leading to blowups between my husband and me, tension in my other relationships, and a general sense of unhappiness and discontentment.

Something needed to change. And in a total surprise twist that absolutely nobody saw coming </sarcasm>, turns out that thing was me!

Now, I’ve never really been the kind of person who’s super into, like, the power of positivity and having mantras and putting good vibes into the universe and all that kind of stuff. I mean, if I’m honest, I used to think that sort of thing was just a whole lot of hooey. But. I can’t lie. This ish works.

 
It sounds so cheesy, but I’ve been adopting a mentality of daily gratitude, focusing on personal affirmations, and being proactive about creating — and knocking out — daily to-do lists and it’s done WONDERS for me. I feel like I’ve been able to maintain such a positive attitude these days, even as I take on new work projects like large-scale events and promotions, as well as personal projects like KonMari-ing the house. And a huge part of what has helped me achieve this attitude is my Panda Planner.

The Panda Planner is a planner, gratitude journal, goal-setter, and habit-encourager all in one. It’s got monthly, weekly, and daily sections, the last of which being where it really shines, IMO. There’s space to reflect on what you’re grateful for and excited about each day, what your daily projects are, list out your schedule and tasks, and a space to reflect on how your day went (and how you can improve the next one) at the bottom.

I know it probably sounds silly, but this one little notebook is has been instrumental in helping me reshape my priorities, focus on the positive, and stay on top of my responsibilities — both work- and Penny-related. I’m only a couple of weeks into using it, but it’s given me the tools to maintain such a great outlook that I actually look forward to filling it out each morning, referencing it throughout the day, and having my little period of reflection each night. And I swear, this isn’t a post sponsored by Panda Planner or anything, I just genuinely love it and feel like it’s helping me cultivate so much happiness and contentment in my life.

The hardest parts for me to get on board with initially were the spaces for a daily focus and affirmation, because it just made the whole thing seem a little too hokey for me. But truth be told, filling out those squares each day has actually been one of the most effective things in helping me figure out my new normal without getting overwhelmed.

For example, I’m a people pleaser and have a really hard time saying no to people — both in terms of my job and in my personal life. So my schedule always ends up packed really tightly, and I get stressed out thinking about all the places I need to go or the people I need to see in a day. And so some of the ideas I’ve been trying to remind myself of lately include:

It’s okay to say no.

You don’t have to (and can’t) please everyone.

Everything is temporary.

One step at a time.

Now is not forever.

And, like I said, it really is working! Whether or not these count as actual “affirmations” or if they’re just really good things to remind myself of, I like that the planner reminds me to go back to it every time I open it up. And as for my daily focus, they’ve thus far been things like gratitude, perspective, professionalism, appreciation, productivity, and serenity.

  
Anyway, I know this might sound silly to some of you (it did to me!), but I just feel like I can’t even properly express how light and uplifted I’ve been feeling lately. Even with a long list of to-dos on my task list everyday, I feel so much better equipped to deal with things these days. And I feel like it’ll just keep getting better and better, as I continue to simplify and declutter my life.

Of course, that being said, Penny could have a bad night where I get like three hours of sleep, and then I could get overwhelmed trying to KonMari the monstrosities that are my desk and bookshelves, and some new crisis might surface at work, and everything could totally fall apart. Who knows? One day at a time, right? 🙂

Penny: Five Months Old

Happy 5 months, darling!

Penelope is just about 17 pounds and in size 3 diapers. She can still fit a few of her 3-6 month outfits, but she’s mostly in 6-9 month stuff now. I gotta figure out a good storage solution for all the clothing she’s outgrown! I’ve started the process of KonMari-ing the house, which means I’ve taken a machete to my own wardrobe and have like 10 bags of stuff to donate (and sell on Poshmark), but I don’t really want to get rid of anything of Penny’s as we plan to give her a sibling (one day… far from now… lol) and I mean, hey, we’ve got a 50/50 shot of it being another girl!

Anyway, our little lovebug has been continuing to grow and develop in leaps and bounds. She can:

  • Roll from tummy to back
  • Roll from her back to her side
  • Suck her thumb (and, uh, her entire hand)
  • Play with the toys on her activity center
  • Take out her paci and put it back in
  • Put everything and anything in her mouth
  • Grab the hair at the nape of my neck with, ahem, vigor (::cry::)
  • Sit up unassisted for short periods
  • Stand with assistance
  • Make it all night without eating (12+ hours!)
  • Almost sleep through the whole night without waking (usually cries for her paci sometime between 3 – 5 AM)

Basically, she’s a rockstar! We’re working on completing the roll from back to tummy, as well as figuring out how to get her to nap for more than 30 – 45 minutes at a time, lol, but we couldn’t be more proud with how our little bean has been doing. She’s just such a chill, patient, and joyful baby! We really got lucky with this one, I tell ya.

She really seems to enjoy playing with toys these days, which is so much fun for us. She loves watching us eat, trying to eat her hands, her stuffed unicorn (she strokes its mane every night before bed — it’s SO FRICKIN’ CUTE), taking baths, and kicking — hard! She also seems to love music, which is wonderful. She’ll smile and gurgle and laugh when I sing to her… which is pretty much all the time since she reacts so adorably when I do! Hopefully that means she thinks I have a good voice. 🙂

She’s still breastfeeding like a champ, and we’re thinking about starting her on solids soon. Our doctor gave us the go-ahead to start playing around with solid food last month at her four-month checkup, but we just haven’t felt like it was necessary. Which, arguably, it’s still not (there’s a saying that goes, “food before one is just for fun”), but I think she’d enjoy it! So, we’ll see. I got some organic baby oatmeal, as my pediatrician recommended baby oatmeal for a first food (as it’s iron fortified), but I also like the idea of having her first food be, well, a “real” food, like sweet potato or banana. I’m doing more research, and obviously I’ll be blogging about it, so stay tuned!

Unfghhh, we just love you so much, little one!