Foxlet: Week 19

Foxlet’s Size: Foxlet is the size of an heirloom tomato according to one app, a mango according to another, and, according to a third, a hot dog! Which feels more than coincidental, considering I’ve eaten a hot dog every day for the past 5 days.

Weight Gained: I think I’ve gained another pound-ish, so I’m slowly edging back up towards my pre-pregnancy weight, yay!

Symptoms: Stiiiiiiiiiill nauseous, but pretty sure it’s continuing to get slowly better, so… yay? (Sigh.) Actual vomiting seems to be down to no more than once a week, and yet, still manages to keep me on my toes (I threw up in the sink while brushing my teeth — a first for me!) My face broke out again a few days ago as well, which is never fun for me.

The main symptom that’s reared its ugly head this past week, however, has been round ligament pain. It’s apparently very normal to feel some pain as Foxlet grows and my uterus expands. Sometimes it feels just kind of like a stretching feeling, and sometimes it’s more of a series of pangs… but the latter is, unfortunately, quite unpleasant. Apparently some women don’t really notice it, but, shockingly, I am not one of those women. On the bright side, it’s a good sign that Foxlet is growing, and is probably dancing/kicking up a storm in there.

I feel like I complain a lot when it comes to my pregnancy symptoms (though in my defense, it does feel like I’m experiencing a disproportionate amount of the bad ones), so to focus on the positive side, my hair seems to be growing faster, and my nails are supah strong!

Emotions: This week I am apparently taking a break from being my usual sobbing, weeping mess, and instead, I’m just crankypants. This past week I’ve been very irritable, and very easily annoyed. I don’t think the nasty weather from the past few days has been helping much… and my crankiness is also probably compounded by the stress of last-minute planning for the huge work event that I have coming up on Friday (my biggest event of the year). Then toss in the fact that I’m not very physically comfortable right now, and here we are. At least I’m cognizant of this being outside of the norm for me? And I like to think I’m relatively aware of when I may be overreacting to small annoyances… although I probably am not really that self-perceptive.

Cravings: Still feeling the call of fresh fruit and raw veggies, which is good, because my other recent pregnancy cravings are decidedly less good for me. Namely, hot dogs with lots o’ mustard, and ham & cheese Hot Pockets. Only that kind of Hot Pocket, though. Bring me a pizza-flavored one and watch in horror as I throw up on your shoes.

Aversions: Pizza, pasta, the dipping sauce that comes with Sean’s mozzarella sticks… red sauce is still 100% banned from my life. Aside from that, most foods are fair game… although my lingering nausea means that I still have a hard time deciding what I want to eat, and am still not eating frequently enough.

Sleep: I’ve stopped taking Unisom to help me fall asleep, and finally feel like I can get to sleep and stay asleep on my own. So, hooray! I also feel like I’m sleeping a good amount of hours, and my Fitbit doesn’t seem to indicate that I’m any more restless than usual. But, that being said, I’ve been staying up kind of late and have also been getting hungry super late at night. So, to make myself less likely to puke first thing in the morning, I’ve been getting out of bed to make myself a midnight snack most nights, lol.

Purchases: My sister gave me a Children’s Place gift card for my birthday and I just couldn’t hold off on spending it any longer, hehe. Behold the cuteness and squee:

Wearing: full-panel maternity jeans/shorts and bodycon maternity dresses pretty much exclusively. And loving it.

Missing… I mainly just miss feeling good. There is always at least a couple of hours each day where I feel pretty awful, whether it’s from feeling nauseous, being hungry, being tired, round ligament pain, or whatever combination of the above. But I count it among my blessings that I haven’t really felt super deprived of anything during this pregnancy so far, so that’s a plus for sure!

Looking Forward to… really feeling Foxlet kick! I think I may have felt her a couple of times now, but each time was like a one-off thing and it’s been really inconsistent. It feels kind of like a bubble popping inside of me? So, could be baby… or could be gas, lol.

Foxlet: Week 14

Ahhhh, week 14! This update is coming at you a bit belatedly due to all the extra vomiting and terribleness that has plagued me for the past few days. Luckily (*knocks on wood*), yesterday seemed to be a turning point where I was able to go the entire day without feeling super nauseous AND was even able to eat an entire Egg McMuffin meal to boot. I can’t even remember the last time I ate anything that you could call an actual “meal” so this is a real boon!

I had an Elite Event last night, too, so it finally gave me an excuse to get out of the house, wear makeup, and not look like a total sorry-for-myself butt. Huzzah!

Foxlet’s Size: Foxlet is currently the size of a nectarine, or a donut!

Weight Gained: Feeling like a broken record, but nothing has changed here. In fact, the few pounds it looked like I had re-gained last week have disappeared again, so I’m back to about 15 pounds down from my pre-pregnancy weight. Who knew that this was the weight-loss solution I’ve been searching for my whole life!

Symptoms: Cross your fingers for me that I really am in the homestretch of my “morning” sickness and nausea! It’s hard to predict, because one day I’ll think that I’m turning a corner, and then the next day I’ll be crouched over my porcelain throne for 25% of the day, but yesterday was my first legitimately good day since, um, week 4. Please, pleeeeeeease let this awful stage of baking this little cinnamon bun be over!

Aside from that, I’ve mainly been experiencing exhaustion, some round ligament pain as my uterus is growing and stretching, and of course…

Emotions: Unsurprisingly, I’m a huge, ridiculous mess when it comes to watching movies these days. I went to see Beauty & the Beast with Ben & Tay and cried sooooo much (also, I loved it!). I mean, like, literally as soon as it transitioned from the Disney intro with the castle into the classic opening theme, I was already a wreck (it was such a seamless transition!).

I also re-watched Moana for the first time since seeing it in the theatres and was destroyed multiple times. God, it’s so good. Like, I’m legitimately getting teary just thinking about it again now.

Cravings: No super strong cravings yet, although last night when I ate my post-event Egg McMuffin, I wanted another one, so I’m going to chalk that up as a kind of craving? Mainly I just want to celebrate that I ate a real thing! And still wanted more! What a novel feeling after the past couple months!

Aversions: Red sauce is still the bane of my existence, and I still have that know-I-should-eat-something-but-just-can’t-fathom-putting-anything-in-my-mouth feeling more often than not. I just stare into my open refrigerator, breathing through my mouth because the smells emanating from the fridge are a little bit much, wracked with indecision.

Sleep: Still vacillating between being a sleep monster and an insomniac. The night before last I went to bed at 9:30 and didn’t get out of bed until… 9:30. And then also took a nap from 2 to 4. The night before that, I could hardly sleep at all.

Wearing: I tried to wear jeans to my Elite Event last night and had to bust out the wide waistband extender, so I think my decision to primarily wear leggings and dresses is still a good one.

Missing… being carnivorous. I guess it’s not really a bad thing, but my meat consumption is way, way down and I do miss the idea of a delicious steak (even if I’m not missing steak itself.)

Looking Forward to… God-willing, being over this nauseous, sad-sack side of pregnancy and hopefully on my way to the whole joyous, glowing, wonderful second-trimester stuff I keep hearing about!

Foxlet: Week 12

Week 12 is here, hallelujah! This means I’m almost out of my first trimester (I guess that technically happens at the end of this week?) and hopefully *fingers crossed* am on my way out of these first trimester symptoms as well. I was 12 weeks on the dot yesterday, but I wanted to wait to post until after my doctor’s appointment, cause I got a new framer to show you, hehe.

That’s a real human baby in there!

Foxlet’s Size: Foxlet is currently the size of a plum, apricot, or my personal fave, a french macaron!

Weight Gained: Still down about the same amount from the beginning of my pregnancy (~13-14 pounds), so no weight gained, although I can definitely tell the shape of my body is starting to change. So no new weight seems to have packed on (yet…), but things appear to be redistributing, lol.

Symptoms: Every time I think I’m on the up and up nausea-wise, it tends to rear its ugly head. Things are still the worst in the evenings, starting around 5 PM and lasting until I go to sleep. But the daytime tends to be all right most of the time, so I’m taking what I can get!

My current most-hated symptom is actually not the nausea, but the terrible terrible terrible breaking out that is happening to my skin! I know this is like sooooooo #whitegirlprobs, but I’ve always had really clear skin, even in high school, so dealing with acne now is actually starting to affect my self-esteem. Let’s just say that glowing, I am not. Le sigh.

Emotions: Errrrm, yeah. I had a dream the other night that Sean and I got a new puppy, and then when I woke up and it wasn’t true I started bawling in bed. Also am crying every time I find Foxlet’s heartbeat on the fetal doppler at home (point of fact: I do not recommend getting a fetal doppler because I couldn’t actually find the heartbeat until 3 days ago and it was causing a lot of “Is my baby dead?!?” anxiety). Also cried at the OB’s office yesterday. Also started bawling when I started thinking about the possibility of Harry dying before Foxlet is born. Also may be getting choked up right now just typing that sentence.

Cravings: Still no specific cravings, as finding food that seems palatable is still my main mission every day. In general, I seem to prefer sweet foods to savories, and can always eat fruit, so I look forward to my future hyperactive sugar-baby.

Aversions: Some of my aversions seem to be subsiding, so that’s really good! I’ve been able to start eating french fries again (huzzah!!) although am still super turned off by the thought of pizza and most meat.

Sleep: Been battling insomnia for the past week, so I have to take a sleep aid at night (Unisom – safe for pregnancy) to help me fall asleep. Once I’m out, though, I’m pretty good at staying asleep and am still getting enough hours in at night that I’ve been able to avoid napping (for now!).

Wearing: The maternity clothes that I ordered arrived this week, so I’ve tried it all on and I kiiiind of love them. My bump is still not so much a bump as my normal bowl full of jelly + some super fun bloating, but as I mentioned above, I can tell that my shape is changing and that means that even without having gained weight, my pants are already much tighter than they used to be. Enter:

The new hotness.

I got like 3 different types of maternity shorts (over-belly, under-belly, side panel) because I’ll be my most pregnant at the hottest time of the year in Northern VA (not great panning on my part) but seeing as how it’ll be 70 degrees today, I might bust these puppies out a little bit early, gahahaha. I’m sure you’ll be seeing the rest of my maternity wardrobe very soon.

Purchases: Aside from some new clothes for me, I haven’t bought anything else new for baby yet.

Missing… nausea-free evenings.

Looking Forward to… Well, as of this time yesterday I would’ve said I was looking forward to finding out the sex of the baby. Which, obviously, I still am (VERY MUCH SO), but I thought that at my appointment yesterday I was getting a blood test that would A) screen for genetic stuff, but also B) able to tell me the sex of the baby (so early!). Weeeeell, turns out that is a different kind of test than the one I actually got, and the kind I want likely wouldn’t be covered by insurance because I’m not having a high-risk pregnancy. (Which, I get is a good thing, I know.) And without insurance would cost like $2,000. Lol.

Anyway, I’m just bummed because I thought I was going to get to find out early, and now I won’t get to know until the 20 week anatomy scan like everyone else. I know, I know, woe is me. I know this all probably sounds super dumb, but I can’t help it: I wanna knooooow! So now I’m considering going to one of those elective ultrasound places where you pay like $70 and they can tell you as early as 14 weeks (although I’d probably wait til at least 16 weeks to increase accuracy.) Does that seem stupid to pay extra money just so I can find out the sex a few weeks earlier? I mean, if we have the technology…

Okay, enough whining about that. It should go without saying that obviously my biggest hope is just for a healthy, happy baby, and so far, the docs say that everything looks exactly as it should, and Foxlet is perfectly on track for 12 weeks — yay!

Foxlet: Week 11

Welcome, welcome to your first weekly Baby Foxlet update! Read on for a rundown of how things are going now that I’m officially in Week 11!

Foxlet’s Size: According to various apps, Foxlet is the size of a lime or a profiterole!

Weight Gained: Still down about 14 pounds from the start of my pregnancy thanks to all the nausea and vomiting (to which I actually woke up this morning… a grrrrrreat start to the day!)

Symptoms: More of the same, I’m afraid. Nausea, occasional vomiting, bloating, exhaustion, and insomnia seems to be joining the fray as of last night (which I think is probably why this morning started off over the porcelain throne, lol.) The good news (!) is that the stretches in the morning when I’m not feeling nauseous seem to be getting longer — yesterday I didn’t start feeling truly heinous until about 5 PM. Progress!

Emotions: All my emotions seem to be just a little more heightened than usual… which probably means that in comparison to a “normal” person, I’m a crazy hormonal wreck, lol. But I’ve only cried like 4 times so far this week (once was in Costco, twice was in response to commercials).

Cravings: None. All food is disgusting. Blegh.

Aversions: See above. But I’m especially turned off by pizza, chicken, steak, mashed potatoes (cryyyyyy), tomato sauce, and chewy bacon (but am digging super crispy bacon, so at least that’s something.)

Sleep: I’ve been sleeping a crazy amount (last night excepted.) I’ve been averaging around 9-10 hours a night, which is great and probably the only reason that I haven’t had to take naps every afternoon. It’s also nice because when I’m asleep, I’m not nauseous!

Wearing: My normal clothes still, although my sister gave me a waistband extender for my jeans that I had to bust out last week due to all this bloating. It’s also a good thing I own literally 16 pairs of yoga leggings because they’re pretty much what I live in. I did just order a few maternity items as well

Purchases: I did a little bit of crazy-lady purchasing right at the beginning when I found out I was pregnant, but haven’t picked anything up in a while.

Missing… actually enjoying eating. Sigh.

Looking Forward to… hopefully feeling some of these symptoms subside in the next week or so (fingers crossed!), and also for my 12 week appointment a week from today!

Foxlet: Weeks 1 – 10

So it’s official: we’ve spilled the beans, and Sean and I couldn’t be more excited that our little Foxlet is on his or her way!

Now, I know that even these days, 10 weeks is still considered kind of “early” to announce your pregnancy, but honestly, it’s taken a LOT of willpower to even wait this long! Being patient has never really been my strong suit (Sean says that if it’s a girl, we’re going to name her Patience so that I’ll finally have some, har har), and with such a huge development (and one that’s affected me so severely — more on that later), it’s been really hard to bite my tongue.

But now that the word is out,  I can’t wait to answer all the questions that you were never planning on asking me about my pregnancy! This kind of stuff is probably super boring to many of you, so feel free to click away if you’re not interested in hearing about the nitty gritty deets, haha.

But that said, without further adieu…

Due date?

September 20, 2017

Foxlet’s size?

Foxlet is currently the size of a kumquat, petit four, or a golden snitch!

How did you find out?

The old-fashioned pee-on-a-stick way. I actually found out suuuuuper early — an entire week before I was even supposed to miss my period! I was just 3 weeks, 4 days pregnant (which really means I’d only actually been pregnant for about 11 days, as doctors calculate your pregnancy from the first day of your last period), but I just had a feeling something was up. So I took a test… and then had to do a double-take when that (then very faint) line appeared! I took like 12 more tests over the next week just to be sure, lol, but there was no mistaking it from the beginning. I was knocked up!

How did you tell Sean?

I wrapped up a daddy parenting book and presented it to him, then showed him the positive tests after he unwrapped the present! He was surprised, but very happy. He may or may not have gotten a little misty… but he’ll never admit it. 🙂

How did you tell your family?

I was able to wait all of 20 minutes before FaceTiming my sister to tell her the big news, haha. I wish I had done something “better,” but I just felt like I had to tell her as soon as possible! I didn’t do anything special when I told my brother and sister-in-law either — just went over there and had a big emotional reveal, lol.

For my parents though, I ordered mugs off of Etsy that said “Popo… Again!” (the Chinese term for grandmother) and “Grampy… Again!” and had them open them at the same time. (We got “Grandma” and “Grampa” mugs for Sean’s parents, too.) I was able to capture my parents’ reaction on video:

How long were you trying?

We actually weren’t technically trying, although I went off my birth control in October, and had started tracking my periods (which were kind of all over the place!) in the Ovia fertility app. So I got pregnant the second month after I stopped my birth control. I’m very aware that this is not the case for a lot of people, and am, of course, incredibly thankful that it was able to happen this way for us. Our original plan was to officially start “trying” after our 1 year wedding anniversary in January, but it just ended up being a happy sort-of-surprise that our plans got moved up a bit!

What was your first symptom?

I started getting many of your typical first trimester symptoms pretty early — by week 5, I was already exhausted, nauseous, etc. But my very earliest symptom was definitely the INSANELY vivid dreams I started having right away! I’ve been keeping a dream journal in my pregnancy app (Ovia Pregnancy), and here’s a mere sampling of some of the entries from the first weeks of my pregnancy:

How have you been feeling?

TERRIBLE. Name a typical pregnancy symptom, and I’ve probably experienced it thus far. Exhaustion, nausea, insomnia, being super emotional, sore breasts, tender nerps, bloating, constipation, heightened sense of smell… sorry to be so vivid, but being knocked up ain’t a bed of roses, I tell you what. The nausea has been the worst part of it for me, because for so long it was completely constant, with no breaks and offering no relief at all. I feel a little guilty complaining when I know there are many women who would love to feel pregnancy symptoms at all — even the terrible ones — but it really has been a tough run these past six weeks.

I try to remind myself that if I didn’t have any bad symptoms at all, my anxiety would probably flare up like crazy and I’d think something was wrong with me or the baby. So maybe it’s been a blessing in disguise? (A very good, extremely convincing disguise.) My OB did prescribe me some medication which seems to have been helping a bit over the past week, and I’m hopeful that things will get better once I get into my second trimester… cross your fingers for me!

What about morning sickness?

Ugh, what a misnomer. I get why there are so many jokes about how it should be called “all day sickness,” because it’s actually no joke! I haven’t been vomiting that much (it only seems to happen when my stomach is totally empty), but I have had constant, unending nausea since before my 5th week. Until about week 9, it would start about 5 minutes after waking and last until I went to bed at night, and I won’t lie, it’s been really miserable.

This past week, however, the mornings have actually been pretty okay, and the nausea hasn’t been settling in until around 2 or 3 PM (then lasting through the rest of the afternoon and evening.) The extra hours of relief in the morning have really made a big difference!

Any cravings?

Not really. I have a really weird relationship with food right now because I’ve been so nauseous that the idea of eating is repulsive in and of itself. But I’ve learned that I have to put something in my stomach every couple of hours, or I’ll throw up. So really the closest thing I’ve had to cravings so far is just identifying foods that I can fathom eating at all, let alone enjoy.

Some of the things that I seem to okay with eating pretty regularly include apples, applesauce, peanut butter pretzels, canned peaches, cereal, cheese, yogurt and ice cream. And generally, most desserts seem to sit all right with me… even if I wasn’t able to eat more than a couple bites of my dinner, lol. Foxlet likes sugar, I guess.

Any food aversions?

Yes! Um, basically all food is now gross to me so, um, everything? As I mentioned above, the concept of eating anything at all is quite difficult for me these days, but there are specific things that I am really turned off by, and the saddest part is that the list includes many of my former favorite foods! French fries, mashed potatoes, Chinese food, steak, burgers, chicken, hot dogs, tomato sauce (weirdly, raw tomatoes are on my A-OK list, but things like pasta with red sauce and pizza are blech), and salads (except for caesar salad) are all currently on my no-fly list.

Weight gain?

I’ve actually lost around 15 pounds since finding out I’m pregnant! (Although between the bloating and my inability to suck in my stomach without feeling like I’m gonna hurl, I definitely don’t look it.) My nausea and food aversions have been so intense that I’m eating way less than I imagine I normally do. I actually hear this is quite common (especially for plus-sized moms-to-be), so it’s not really a cause for concern. I’m sure I’ll gain it all back (and then some) as soon as I can eat like a normal human again.

How has work been going?

I thank God every day that I work from home and have such a flexible job, because given how tough the past 6 weeks have been, I can only imagine how much harder it would be if I had to go into an office every day! But work is good, aside from shifting around my typical work schedule around a bit to account for some extra sleeping or time spent being pathetic on the couch.

I spent this past week at a work conference in the city, and was a little worried about how well I’d do having to actually sit up and pay attention instead of wallow in self-pity, but it all turned out all right. I did spill the beans to my coworkers at the beginning of the week though, so they’d understand if I was a little less peppy than usual (or if I had to suddenly bolt out of the room — thankfully, that didn’t happen!)

What about working out?

Lol, well, those of you who know me know that even when I wasn’t pregnant, I hated working out. And with the much-mentioned nausea and general feeling-terrible-ness of this pregnancy, it’s been extra hard to motivate myself. But I know that movement is important when it comes to both my and Foxlet’s health, so I’ve been trying to get in at least one 20-30 minute walk every day. It’s not much, but I do think it helps (and it’s not too hard to convince myself to do it when the weather is as insanely nice as it’s been this week!)

How are Harry & Daxter doing?

Harry never seems to be bothered by anything, but I think Daxter definitely can tell something’s up. He’s been sooooo cute and cuddly with me since I got pregnant! I’m not 100% sure how he’ll react to having a baby in the house — he’s had plenty of experience around my nieces Mia and Kira, but has also exhibited a bit of jealous behavior in the past. I’m planning on doing several things to make sure both dogs are acclimated appropriately as things progress.

Baby names?

I’ve got a running list going, but finding names that both Sean and I agree on are few and far between. I’m sure that once we find out the sex of the baby, the name conversation will start taking place more often, but right now it’s not really top of mind.

What do you think the baby will look like?

Speculating on this has been one of the most fun parts of my pregnancy so far! Sean and I are both half-Asian and half-Caucasian — he is half-Korean, half-Irish, and I’m half-Chinese, half-generic white bread (I think my dad’s side of the family originates from Wales… like 14 generations ago.) Knowing how kooky genetics can get when it comes to mixed-race kids (just look at how different my siblings and I look!), it’s fun to think about how this kiddo could come out looking super Asian, or could come out with green eyes and dirty blonde hair.


Whew! I think that probably covers it for now. I gotta say, it feels so good to be able to talk (write!) about all of this! I’m sure that future updates will be much shorter and sweeter, and apologies for the wordiness of this post… but I’ve been keeping a lot bottled up over the past few weeks! If you’ve got any questions for me that I didn’t touch on today though, lay ’em on me!