Focusing on the Good

Whew, is it Friday already? It’s been a busy week!

My mom’s birthday was Tuesday, so the fam celebrated by having dinner out at True Food Kitchen in Mosaic. Since dinner wasn’t until 7:30, which is just about Penny’s bedtime, I thought that if we put Penny in her PJs that maybe she’d fall asleep in the car and sleep through dinner. Well, I was half-right — she fell right asleep in her carseat, but woke up as soon as we got inside the restaurant and was simply not interested in going back to sleep. Womp womp.

I think the days of us being able to dine out with her snoozing peacefully away are officially behind us. She just finds everything far too interesting now. Oh well, soon enough she’ll be able to sit in her own high chair and participate in meals with us when we dine out!

And speaking of dining… Penny’s been really enjoying eating oatmeal (we’re using the Happy Baby Organic Baby Oatmeal), so after four days of her demolishing each bowl of that, we’ve moved on to trying out sweet potatoes!

I boiled two sweet potatoes and processed them with about half a cup of the water they were cooked in, then divvied up the puree into 2 oz portions. (The containers are from Babymoov, if you’re curious.)

Penny loved it, of course! She took down a whole container with gusto — my good little eater! Of course, the fact that she loves solids so much isn’t something I could just celebrate outright. Nope, I just had to get anxiety about how this is going to affect us in terms of nursing and my milk supply. It probably doesn’t help that I’ve had a ton of work to get done this week, so I’ve spent less time in the house (sadly, even if someone else is taking care of her, I’m much more productive when I’m not around Penny ::sob::) which means, of course, I’ve spent less time breastfeeding.

Plus, during the times when I have been able to nurse her over the past few days, she’s been much, much fussier than normal. And pair that with the fact that yesterday I had a pumping session where I produced less than 1 oz of breastmilk total (I had typically been producing 2 – 4 oz per breast previously), and I found myself in a bit of a tailspin:

Am I not producing enough anymore? Is it not coming out fast enough? Have I not been pumping often enough? Is she still hungry? You hear about babies who lose interest in breastfeeding once they start solids — is that what’s happening? Does she prefer bottles to nursing now? Am I going to have to start power pumping? Exclusively pumping? Should we start supplementing with formula?

Aaaaand so on, and so forth. There’s just always something, y’know? No matter how smooth a breastfeeding journey you’ve had thus far, how easy a baby you’ve got, or how just, well, good becoming a mom has been (all of which I know I’m already insanely lucky to be able to say about myself), anxiety and fear always finds a way to creep in.

But I’m trying to take a step back and remind myself that one or two days does not a pattern make, and that she’s going through another developmental leap, and that since I haven’t had any issues up to this point, I shouldn’t jump to conclusions… but that doesn’t mean it’s not tough to keep things in perspective sometimes. I really am trying, though! Continuing to force myself to focus on gratitude and all the positive things I have going on in my life definitely helps when I start to spin out like this — because I really do have a lot of good going on!

And speaking of good things, I am excited to announce that our new part-time nanny started! She’s great, and we’re thrilled to have found someone that we feel comfortable taking care of our Lucky Penny. And Penny took to her right away, too, which really made everything even more reassuring.

Our nanny actually has an 11-month old daughter who she’ll be bringing with her to our house (so it’s kind of like a nannyshare, in a way), and I know it sounds so cheesy but I’m really excited for Penny to have a li’l baby friend to watch, emulate, and hopefully play with very soon.

Double the cuteness, double the fun!

I hope everyone has a relaxing and/or productive weekend, depending on what your goals are, hehe. Mine will be spent pumping (lol sigh), cleaning, snuggling with a certain baby, and helping out my bro on a music video shoot! And hopefully sleeping too…

We’ll see you on the flipside!

Starting Solids!

Happy Monday!

I hope everyone had a great weekend — mine fell 100% into the productive vs. relaxing weekend category, and I’m not mad about it. My lifted mood from last week is still going strong, and is helping me stay motivated in continuing to declutter our home, figure out my schedule, and generally just get my life in order! I feel like I accomplished a ton, from cleaning to childcare to cooking (I’m making a big concentrated effort to plan meals more and eat out less as part of both my weight-related and finance-related goals, lol), and I’m feeling pretty good going into this week.

I was able to check another area off of my KonMari to-do list: my office! As you know, I work from home, which up until this point has meant working from my coffee table because my desk had just become one giant catch-all for random crap. Thankfully, that’s no longer the case anymore, and I can look at my workspace as a place to actually get work done now. Huzzah! Penny is clearly very excited about it:

Okay, okay, maybe her excitement isn’t stemming so much from my recently decluttered office, but the fact that she started solids yesterday!! Upon her pediatrician’s recommendation, she had her very first taste of baby oatmeal yesterday. We followed instructions to mix 1 tbsp of oatmeal with 4 tbsp pumped breastmilk for a super runny consistency since it was her very first time.

And while she was a but confused upon first bite…

She ended up getting really into it! She took to the spoon very quickly, didn’t push it out or turn away, and certainly didn’t seem to have any trouble taking her food down.

She ate the whole bowl! She really is my child.

Lol, she just looks so satisfied with herself! I’m sensing we’ll also be seeing more baths in her future now that we’ve hit this particular milestone… and not gonna lie, I’m not looking forward to how this is going to change what comes out from the other end now, hahahaha.

But I AM excited to be able to get into making other foods for her now that this went so well! I’ve already got some sweet potatoes, so I think that’ll probably be her first “real” food, as we continue having fun with the baby oatmeal as well (and lowering the ratio of oatmeal:milk as she gets better with the texture.) And from there? Sky’s the limit! It’s a whole new world of flavor and texture out there for Penny now!

What was your baby’s (or your!) first food?

I think mine was bananas. My parents tell me that it was my first word, too! Baby Gretchen must’ve loved her some ‘naners.