Man, am I feeling the deja vu vibes today. It may have been a while since I was truly (madly, deeply) on my weight loss kick, but I certainly never forgot the thrill and terror of stepping back onto the scale. Especially because my starting baseline was higher this time… womp womp.
And yes, of course I know that the scale is just one measure of health, and arguably not the best one, either. But there’s no denying that it’s still a good way to keep a general idea of how things are going, especially when starting out… and especially at my current weight. I grappled a little bit with the idea of publishing my weigh-ins weekly this time, since I do realize that it’s about the downward trend of my weight loss over time, not necessarily the individual weigh-ins. I admit that I used to get really caught up in the specific numbers before, and my mood became very dependent on what I saw each Wednesday. Down a pound, I’d be ecstatic. Up, even just a few ounces, despondent. That sort of thing. Not to mention just the sheer embarrassment of having to admit exactly how much I weigh to anyone who reads here.
But, that being said, I’ve always been a huge proponent of honesty and transparency when it comes to weight loss in general, and especially when it comes to my weight loss. This is probably a whole post for another time, but I firmly believe we as a society need to destigmatize the actual numbers, and educate about what it really means to be a “healthy weight.” Since there are still an alarming number of people who have no real concept what a healthy weight is, and instead issue blanket statements about how people who weigh over 200 pounds are the most disgusting possible type of human. But I digress.
I mean, let’s be real, it was when I stopped being transparent and talking about it that I started to have real issues with my weight again, so what does that tell me? And recording my successes and failures each step of the way through this journey is such an integral part of keeping me accountable and motivated in what I’m doing. So I’m sticking with my weight loss roots, for the time being at least, and reinstating “official” weigh-ins.
One of my goals this time around, however, is to keep a better perspective about it. My weight fluctuates daily (and by a lot — I can be up or down 3+ pounds within a single day), and even though the whole point of picking a specific day and time is so there is relative consistency, I still want to be sensible about it.
Aaaaanyway, all this to say, I did weigh myself this morning and here are the official stats:
Starting Weight: 254.2 lbs
Current Weight: 244.6 lbs
Difference: 9.6 lbs
So! Down 9.6 pounds in week 1… with a pretty big caveat, given that I’m pretty positive that I didn’t really lose 10 actual pounds in 8 days. We’re talking water weight, the kind of weight that sheds purely from cleaning up your diet and cutting out a lot of the stuff that our bodies end up carrying around for the whole week.
This is almost exactly what happened during Round 1 (which is how I will refer to my 2010 weight loss heretofore) — I dropped 10 pounds in the first week! So you can see where the deja vu comes in. Even in trying to keep a level head about it, I won’t lie and say it’s not encouraging to see (well, encouraging and discouraging, since all this does is put me back at the same weight I was at the very beginning of Round 1… but I’m still working through those complicated feelings, as you know.)
I just have to be cognizant of the fact that this is obviously not the norm. I am not a contestant on the Biggest Loser who is working out 8 hours a day to drop 14 pounds every week. (Sidenote: have you guys read this super interesting NY Times article about Season 8’s Biggest Loser contestants? It’s a really interesting study about the long-term effects of extreme weight loss on metabolism.) I am, however, an overweight individual aiming to shed pounds at a reasonable clip through good old-fashioned “diet” and exercise. (I have a lot of issues with the word “diet” so that’s why it gets the quotation-treatment-—another post for another time, perhaps—but you get the general gist of what I’m laying down, right?)
Anyway, so here we are! We kick off Round 2 (I know, I know, it’s really like Round 283948, but we’re simplifying things here, haha), Week 2 today! As my old motto says: onward… and downward!